难熬的日子

在新加坡的日子波折重重。首先就是女屋主对我的偏见，头一次见面她就板着脸，第二天发现我把内裤丢进洗衣机里，拿着我的内裤来找我骂。虽然连连道歉了，但是还是免不了以后难熬的日子。大家都工作去，只有我和她在家。我在房间上网找工，为了表示尊敬，我都像其它人平时在家的状态，把房门开着。她每天都要扫地拖地或吸尘，我要帮忙她却连连拒绝，只好站起来让她打扫我的座位，很难堪。她做家务的声量是无比的大，听在我的耳朵里压力就是难以形容，无论我offer她什么帮忙，她都拒绝。我能做的就是在她还未起床时把家里打扫一遍，虽然过后她还是会照样重做，至少我做了。
男朋友开始不能体谅，我们连连吵架，连努力的动力都没有了，跑回家乡逃避。后来和好后，有了动力重新出发，回到新加坡重新找工。每天如常对女屋主礼貌称呼，尽量打扫屋子，女屋主给的压力有稍微比较少了，虽然依然谈不上话，但脸没有板着了，不懂是不是被我软化了，还是因为最近她身体不舒服的原因，至少感觉没那么僵硬。感谢上帝。
I went through a few interviews. Last Monday (1/4/2013) I had a second interview at AVM System Pte. Ltd. for the position of Admin Assistant. The interviewer Mr. Tan had offered me another position with a job scope that I am not looking for (to entertain his business partners which include drinking alcohol with them). He then requested for my documents included passport and white card for pass application. I told him I need one day time to consider about the offer and will get back to him on the next day. He insisted to scan my documents with the reason of shorten the period of processing. He said it could be cancelled if I reject him, but he would want to help me make the best scanning as the documents of the first application will remain in the MOM's database forever. So, I made my biggest mistake here by trusting his words and let him scan my documents.
At the same night, I rejected his offer and requested for the offer back to the position I applied, Admin Assistant. He said he would want to think about it. I didn't get any news from him after that, and I assumed that he has no intention to hire me. So, I proceeded to other interviews.
Friday (5/4/2013), I am shortlisted by another company (Aero Laundry & Linen Services Pte.Ltd) 我以为我可以开始找房间搬出来了，但是？ we found the error in the system for the application of pass. I called AVM System Pte. Ltd. and requested for the cancellation of the application for my pass. Mr. Tan didn't reply my calls personally. I had asked the admin stuff to pass him my request. I continued calling them on Monday (8/4/2013). He told the stuff to tell me that there is no way to cancel it as the application is still in pending status (I had asked around that this statement is not true). Yesterday (9/4/2013) I called again and the admin stuff told me that Mr. Tan has no intention to cancel it.
我不停地打电话，sms他，求他，他不听，今天甚至上门找他，他也以开会为理由不见我。 软硬兼施，也没有办法。上帝，您给我的考验，似乎有一点太大了吧？Aero Laundry不知道会愿意等我到什么时候。我的旅游准证也将过期。好想哭。。。